Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Down on my knees

I am not a very religious person. That does not mean that I am an atheist. Or even agnostic. (Although sometimes I wish that we could get rid of religion altogether from this world to free ourselves of all the political unrest that is being caused by religious sentiments). It just means I am not a very religious person. I do not go to the temple on the first weekend every month. I do not quote shloks from the Gita to prove a point. I do not burst into enthusiastic Om Jai Jagadish Hare at social gatherings. I do not see the point of fighting and killing each other over religion. I do not see why we need to break down mosques to build a temple, or why we have to burn people because they are Christians, or why we have to set fire to a train because it is stashed with Hindus, or destroy entire populations because they practice a different faith.

Yet sometimes I just go down on my knees and pray like crazy.

Usually it is when I feel very helpless and scared. When I truly believe I need a miracle, some kind of divine intervention to make things right in my life.

I pray.

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Blogger GhostOfTomJoad said...

Hey! I guess most of us are that way. But, I fear that religion will be the cause of our ruin. I have no doubt in my mind that, the way things have been shaping up over the last few years, it’s going to get from bad to worse. It's really funny how we think god needs our protection. I just wish people could understand that religion and god are bigger than us and all the insults, and perceived insults, we can heap upon them. Anyway, you mentioned praying... have your prayers ever been truly answered?

1:14 PM  
Blogger GhostOfTomJoad said...

Oh, and you might like to visit fishywords.blogspot.com for a wonderful post on religion and god :-)

1:17 PM  
Blogger Ghetufool said...

we all are same m, we all do the same thing.

1:39 PM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

@ ghostoftomjoad thanks for directing me to a really great post. Couldn't have said it better.
And as far as praying goes, to be honest yes, a lot of them were answered. Even really impossible crazy prayers. Which makes me beg for more miracles. More prayers come true. Greedy? May be. Selfish? Probably. Hypocrite? In some ways yes.
I really wish I could change certain expectations out of life.
@ ghetufool I guess so. I just hope my prayers are answered.

2:56 PM  
Blogger Prerona said...

may all ur prayers come true, which are true good for you :)

5:35 PM  
Blogger Grafxgurl said...

thats what happens..

we only go to God when things go wrong in our life..

ive noticed that when i go to Him when things ar goign right...it makes life so much happier for longer...

its just hard to stick close to Him when things are going well...we tend to forget Him....

God doesnt want religion.. he wants us to have a personal relationship with Him....to walk with him.. always.. to be close to him.. i go astray so much but when i do go back to Him...its like ..ive come home.

11:52 PM  
Blogger Ratna said...

May your prayers heard and miracles showered on you.

1:07 AM  
Blogger True Blue Guy said...

Like you I dont worry much about religion. I am not a 'fanatic'. I dont pray regularly but that does not mean I dont believe in god.

The only time I actively went to church (I'm a hindu btw) was when I was dating a christian girl. She loved going every Thursday, so I used to go. Come to think of it, I used to find peace in it


2:05 AM  
Blogger DD said...

kichhu gondogol holo naki?

3:10 AM  
Blogger Casablanca said...

I think to a great extent, faith is no longer the same thing as religion. While we all still have faith in bigger powers, all that is happening in the world does leave us disillusioned with religion.

3:14 AM  
Blogger Seashells said...

Been there myself... It's more like

"Well I never pray
But tonight I'm on my knees yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind, I feel free now
But the airways are clean and there's nobody singing to me now "

4:15 AM  
Blogger Priya said...

I hope nothing's grievously wrong. May yr prayers always be answered. Just an update from my end, remember my friend R, in one of my blogs? Well she finally went and butchered her long hair. SHe wanted me to especially tell you thanks for motivating! M- the motivator! SHe's looking great, though she just can't get over the fact that she doesn't have the same volume and the length and keeps consoling herself saying "it's just my hair, it'll grow back, I know".
Just keep these inspiring posts coming along. I'll come back some day, with a post, if you pray harder!

7:25 AM  
Blogger Fosix said...

so true... so true... nice post... i guess a lot of us are the same...
religion is somewhat like language... different people speak different languages depending on where they were born and/or who their parents are... ultimately, we all use different languages to say the same thing... so why fight over it ?

9:14 AM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

@ prerona thank you....
@ grafxgurl everything you said is so true. I believe in having a personal relationship with 'God'. I just don't know who He/She/It is or what He/She/It looks like. I pray every night esp to be thankful for all my blessings and to ask for something more. There's always something more that I want and surprisingly a lot of my prayers are actually answered.
I am just losing faith in religion.
@ ratna thanks and I hope so too.
@ true blue guy I guess there's a difference between being religious and having a faith.
@ dd that's sweet of you to ask. All I can say is there are things in life that you really aspire for, work your entire life trying to make it happen and you feel like life will take an entirely different meaning if that dream does not come true for you. Well I'm at one of those junctures. The fate determining kind. And if this dream gets shattered I will be hurting and destroying the hopes, expectations and lives of more than one person. So you see it is quite a load to bear. All I can do right now is keep my fingers crossed and pray.
@ casa couldn't agree with you more.
@ seashells that's one way of putting it :) I do pray. Often. But some prayers are more important than others. And I was trying to make a deal with 'God'. I said that I was ready to give up on other things that I've asked from 'God' only to have this one prayer answered. And believe me some of things I am ready to give up are extremely important issues for me. But this one prayer deserves no less a sacrifice. And I am willing to give up everything else.
@ priya thanks for letting me know. I'm happy for R and I hope she will get to like her new look. I really don't look at myself as much of a motivator or inspiration. Sometimes I am so confused myself about life. I feel lost. May be it's the fear of disappointment. May be it's depression. Can't see myself at this point in life being an inspiration for anything. But thanks anyways!

9:21 AM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

@ fosix sorry I missed you there. Very nice analogy. Beats me too.

9:23 AM  
Blogger Intern said...

Thats so wonderfully expressed! Kudos!
And Amen ...

10:28 AM  
Blogger Jinguchakka said...

You just gave the reason for religion. Read Karl Marx on Religion. BTW, I am a what you call a "practising" Hindu!

10:43 AM  
Blogger Dreamcatcher said...

That was eloquently put and i feel exactly the same way..the last time i prayed like crazy was when my grandmother was in hospital..it was as you put it "Usually it is when I feel very helpless and scared. When I truly believe I need a miracle, some kind of divine intervention to make things right in my life."
and in my early school days i went to a Catholic school and then to a school which was totally indifferent about religion.
but when iam totally helpless, i guess as you said i pray like you too.

11:42 AM  
Blogger Kele Panchu said...

Good luck to you! I don't pray, but if you feel God is the 'bridge over your troubled water' then it should help.

11:52 AM  
Blogger Grafxgurl said...

well yeah man has created organised religion... and seeing as how imperfect we are... imagine us trying to keep what we create pure....


11:57 AM  
Blogger GhostOfTomJoad said...

I hope your prayers are answered and it all works out for you. You seem like a good person so, I know, it will work out :-)

12:48 PM  
Blogger Ron said...

but to me religion and belief in god are two separate things. i dont believe in one while the other is what gives me strength to hope when it seems that life cant get any worse.

i hope things turn out ok for you.

5:39 AM  
Blogger biju said...

exactly my sentiments.. I cannot disbelieve there is something out there that is too big for us to understand. Yet, I find religions themselves a waste-product of civilization

7:19 AM  
Blogger Bonatellis said...

i think u need to understand and appreciate that not all people in this world are employable ;)

7:24 AM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

@ intern thanks and keep visiting!
@ jinguchakka I didn't quite get you there...gave the reason for religion...what reason?
@ dreamcatcher same here. i grew up learning not to differentiate between different religions which probably gave me a broadminded view on the issue. But having a faith is so different than being religious.
@ kele panchu I guess in one's weakness they grope for the unknown, the all powerful divine help.
@ grafxgurl 'organized religion' liked that.
@ ghostoftomjoad I'm flattered and thank you.
@ ron exactly my thoughts.
@ biju thanks for visiting my blog. I think when religion was first introduced into society it was supposed to help one live better. may be give people hope when there was none. But in today's world where there is zero tolerance, religion is the tool to judge, persecute and destroy human life.
@ bonatellis so unemployment is the excuse for creating dissent and killing each other?

9:06 AM  
Blogger biju said...

@M: Not the first time here. First comment though :) And thanks for visiting mine. :D

9:37 AM  
Blogger jaded said...

Sometimes it's good to pray.Helps a lot.Even if you are an atheist.

10:26 AM  
Blogger Jinguchakka said...

"Usually it is when I feel very helpless and scared." - This is the reason. Most people become religious when they think the situation is daunting. Not when everything is going their way!

11:49 AM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

@ biju ok and thanks again!
@ jaded never said i was one :)
@ jinguchakka not religious. may be believe in something. That is called faith. But definitely not religious.

4:02 PM  
Blogger erebus said...

wow.... inspirational even...

7:15 PM  
Blogger Acroyali said...

wish ur prayers are answered at the soonest. may all be well, and take care.

... i do the exactest thing.

8:33 AM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

@ erebus thanks but i don't feel very inspired myself right now.
@ acroyali thank you...

9:27 AM  
Blogger observateur_silencieux said...

:) Am sure you know what my comment might be considering I just had a long post about religion a few days ago on my blog.

I think the word is not religion anymore.. its faith.. its belief.. and it could be anywhere.. even when you just pause while talking to someone to take a moment and say "if there can a miracle, please it be now" And to be honest.. life is one big series of miracles anyways rite? knowing different ppl is a miracle too isn't it?

I sincerly hope nothing huge is wrong... and if something is wrong.. trust me miracles happen.. they just take time .. and maybe a different form too from what we expected!
{{warm vibes sent to you}}

10:19 PM  
Blogger Wrong number said...

Yada, yada yada... Am just wondering where the concept of 'original thought' vanishes when people reply to posts. No offence meant to you personally, m. You know I wouldnt ever accuse you of being cliched.
But just have a look at the responses to your post. Not one intellectually stimulating thought among them. If you believe in some form of God, now is the time to pray for a miracle. Ask him to spare a little bit of creativity and originality.
p.s. Tell the dude/babe up there, not to take the "little bit" part too literally.

5:32 PM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

@ mieasha thanks and I hope so too. Yes I read your post when you wrote it and I've written about the way I feel abot religion many times. Although honestly this one post was really not about religion or my views on it, but rather my personal problems and shortcomings.
@ saale come on now....do you really have to be so bitter? Give these people a break. Usually when I comment on someone's blog I do so because I can identify with what this person said and totally agree. That takes originality out in the first place. And if I disagree I say nothing for the most part because I really am not the confronting kind. May be that's what everyone here is doing.
But honestly I am getting to look forward to your comments. You always have something different to say, you challenge and do not think twice about raising issues. You remind of someone who used to frequent my blog and has kind of disappeared of late, who used to leave these challenging inflammatory comments that I kind of enjoyed (sigh!). I hope you keep coming back.... it will keep complacency from creeping up on me to say the least :)

9:45 AM  
Blogger Bonatellis said...

i think it's time to get up and write the next one :)

11:54 AM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

just did :))

1:39 PM  
Blogger Ashmi said...

hey its so true.....i to seem to be very selfish when it comes to prayers though my faith ijn the Almighty lies undaunted coz the miracle he creates each time i seem to lose all hopes and life seems to be a mere nothing.....he truly can do wonders, and i've seen it happen again and agin when i least expect but true its a shame that people kill each other in the name of something tha is so divine, that has never taught us to draw that line that poses as a barrier for no god :(

1:56 PM  
Blogger M (tread softly upon) said...

@ ashmi yes, THAT is called faith.

11:39 AM  

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